Sunday, May 31, 2009


昨天我的生日会上。。我们都醉了。。。拼命灌酒。。。想不醉也难。。。大概喝了三四罐。。。
我们都倒了。。。开始胡言乱语。。。开始high了。。。但。。开心中大家都流露着一股悲伤。。。我想大家也有不开心的事吧!。。。渐渐的。。我们喝开了。。。
悲伤也渐渐漫延了。。。酒或许真的是一种暂时消愁的东西。。。但。。也只是暂时。。
“她”哭了。。。“他”醉了。。。“她”看见“她”哭“她”也想哭了。。。
当“他”出现在我面前我也想哭了。。。“我们”。。都哭了。。。
都是“酒”的错。。。伤心才不能停止。。。也因为“酒”我们都哭了。。。
哭过以后。。今天的我们都一如往常。。继续呼吸。。。
因为。。我们都相信。。。
明天。。。一切都会过去的。。。
我们。。。都还是我们。。。
悲伤。。。只是一种情绪。。。
一种。。。我们都拥有的情绪。。。
而我们。。。都没有盲目的延续“它”。。。

你。。第一次陪我过生日。。。。。。。
你。。第一次送给我的礼物。。。。。。。。
你。。第一次跟我交换鞋子然后陪我走过的一段路。。。。。。。。
你。。第一次说想要听我唱歌。。。。。
你。。第一次要我帮你拍照。。。。。。。。
你和我的第一次。。。
我记住了。。。
那一天我。。是幸福的。。。


昨天真是过了一个超high的生日。。。不错。。挺快乐的。。。。朋友们个个都high翻天。。。
朋友们到了这。。。就包围了我青梅竹马的帅哥。。。哈哈。。。帅哥真可怜。。。
过后就当然是唱歌啦。。。哇!!他们真是超厉害的。。。吵死了。。。不过感觉很好。。。
最吊的是朋友们个个喝醉酒。。。连我也差点一样。。。还好没什么。。只是晕晕的。。。
A LIM最惨。。喝的眼红脸又红。。。还乱乱打人。。说他醉了又说自己没醉。。。惨!!!
统统来我家借酒消愁。。连女的也是。。。把酒当汽水喝。。。不过快乐就好。。。
谢谢你的到来。。。
谢谢你的礼物。。。
我记住了你对我说的每一句。。。
真的。。记住了。。。

Friday, May 29, 2009


筱丝。。。生日快乐。。。。开心吗?不开心。。。。为什么。。。不知道。。。
我想。。是他。。。忘了我的生日吧?。。。算了。。他或许根本不在乎。。。。
你会快乐的。。。即使没有他。。。
是我期望太高。。。因为他根本不可能。。。永远。。。
算了吧。。。。

今天和妈咪去了超级市场购物。。。准备明天要用的东西。。。惨!!。。。
一买就买了整百块。。。钱包大失血哦。。。
买了东西就左在电脑前继续收看“不良笑花”超好看的啦。。潘伟伯超帅。。。
爱死他了。。。哈哈。。发侨哦。。。
看到了一半。。就被我那讨厌的弟弟叫我去陪他理发。。。麻不麻烦啊。。。
不过剪了他那之前的“死人发型”。。现在好看多了。。
早就该剪啦。。。真是伤脑筋。。。。
回到家又继续观赏我的偶像剧啦。。。
你今天问过我的话。。我记住了。。。
不管刚刚你骂了我几句。。我还是很开心。。。
因为。。。我很想你。。。

Thursday, May 28, 2009


我失去了当初的那个我。。。我不快乐。。。我的灵魂已被反锁。。。
已被侵蚀。。。连看喜剧片也会哭的原因是什么。。。我是爱哭鬼吗?确定不是为了爱情而打了这一篇部落格。。。绝对不是。。。原因我找不到。。。总觉得失去了什么。。。是我长大了吧。。。灵魂会因成长而便薄?快乐会因成长而腐烛吗?会吗?当问题多了。。。也不必寻找答案了吧。。。习惯了在夜里哭泣。。但不是因为不快乐。。。是一种习惯。。。
夜里的我不是我。。白天的我不是我。。。我不见了。。。找不回了。。。
习惯熬夜。。。因为累了。。。就等于倒了。。死了。。。什么都不用想。。。
这样。。我不会失眠。。。
筱丝。。。累了吧。。。
是的。。我累了。。。

在你身边。。总习惯笑着哭。。。笑。。是因为爱你。。。哭。。是因为你从不知道。。。
你有了一个她。。会快乐吗?少了她。。。会难过吗?我该怎么办。。。
不想猜测你的心情。。。但不去猜测我会失眠。。。我们之间到底算什么。。。你习惯用只专属我的眼神看着我。。那又算什么。。只是好玩吗?你把我当笨蛋吗?
笑着哭。。很累。。。笑多久。。哭多久都没用。。。你对我一点都不在乎。。。
只是我爱得不认输。。。对你的爱选择了让步。。。我被你放逐在寒冷的国度。。。
去学习暧昧不清不是甜蜜。。。这只是一种爱你的理由。。。让自己认为你是我的理由。。。
爱到最后。。我还剩什么。。。会不会是已颓废的身躯。。。还是依然笑着流泪。。。
今天是考试过后的第一天。。聪明的人是不会去学校的。。。但我们。。。就去了。。
但不代表我们是笨的。。。只是好玩。。。刚到学校就被婉欣阿嫂放飞机。。说什么睡迟了。。
干脆没来。。这样就只剩我、意晴、有惠和钧惠。。。
开始上课了。。。好惨。。一个老师也没进班。。。算了。。。最重要的是。。。
老师要我们大扫除。。。惨惨惨。。那些垃圾恶心到。。。不想讲了。。。
放学了。。。意晴想要我送隐性眼睛给她。。看她想要了那么久。。。就答应送给她啦。。。
但以我的能力来说是不能一个人负担得起那个价钱的。。只好找某人合钱买给她。。。
但她却不要某人跟我合钱送她。。。她说不想欠他任何东西。。。
“花生什么树啊!”(发生什么事啊)这位小姐会不会想太多。。。算了。。。随她吧。。。
生日只剩一天哦。。。


Wednesday, May 27, 2009


考完试了。。。解脱了。。。哇哈哈。。。要玩玩玩。。。哈哈。。但大考快来了。。。
算了。。跟它拼了。。。
我的生日。。倒数两天。。。生日快了。。。
你。。。会跟我说生日快乐吗?


你紧行渐远。。。眼睁睁看着你飞。。紧紧的握着她手。。。
不去跟随是我对我自己最后一个解脱。。。
即使彼此之间存有好感。。。也不可能了。。。。

Tuesday, May 26, 2009


曾经太年轻。。。曾经最幼稚的想法。。。。总以为在某个地方遇见他。。。
就表示他是你命中注定的那一个。。。所以会不断的往外跑。。。
很累。。。
可笑。。。幼稚。。。

Saturday, May 23, 2009


today..ERICON had a speaking test...bt in nt formal...juz asking for personal thgs....
teacher ask me how i describe my friend around me...i said crazy..haha..teacher felt shock...
after tat he ask hw did i feel in tis class...i honestly and tell teacher tat im feel lonely...
teacher felt very sorry to me...and try to comfort me...im agree tat he is a good teacher...
MY WORLD...YOU EVEN KNOW FOREVER...
IM LONELY...I WILL TAKE CARE OF MY OWN...
IM FINE....

Friday, May 22, 2009


exam adi pass for three days..another three days ..GAMBATEH lo...haiz...
after finish today's exam...haiz giv mou mou people splash water through my face n body...
haiz...cham...
WHAT HAV YOU PROMISE...YOU FORGET...
IZIT WITHOUT HER...YOU FORGET...
I JUZ CAN COMFORT MY OWN...
WITHOUT YOU...IM OK...

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

I din hav any wild wishes...i juz hope you wont b sad...i juz wan you to b happy...although you are impossible belongs to me...bt ur happy will let me feel n understand...certain of day..u r belongs to me...certain of day...im holded the happinest...this in my blessedness..
although only one day...i will remember...forever...even if i forget ur face..i will remember ur happy...

CHERISH FOREVER....

REMEMBER FOREVER...

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Juz now go to ate dinner with daddy n brother...haiz mommy din at home...go out le...
we three so crazy...juz eat a dinner oso wan went to d kuala lumpur to ate...
after reach my daddy order jor one JAZ(BEER)...walao...i already drink for five glasses...
like wan mabuk le...haha...tat restorant many AMORE le..all oso go to drink BEER...
bt no one handsome...haha...alredy finish then go bac le...on d way tat i go bac...
i found tat KUALA LUMPUR is a beautyful city...big big , high high building...
n d beautiful building's light...haha...i love it...



MY LIFE IS ALL TAIKING ABOUT YOU...
MY MIND ALL THINKING ABOUT YOU...
BT JUZ DONE ALL BY MYSELF...CANT SHARE...
COZ LOVE YOU IS THE ...SECRET...

Saturday, May 16, 2009


today go out to do recycling with mom...
so tired lo...early early then woke up le...
when i reach...i went to d group tat r separate the paper o
plastic...suddenly....i found sumthing ....
i took up n see clearly....
(WALAO...IS A BERAK!!!)
fast fast throw away lo...an unforgotten experience....
after i done..i ate my breakfast...bt....cnt ate..coz cnt forgot about juz now tat berak....
(YUACK !!) after ate then go bac luu...after go bac want study d...
bt cnt study so tired...cham lo...exam fail le...haiz...
DO EVERYTHINGS ...
JUZ MISSING OF U....

next week i din go skul...
haiz...i absolutely will miss u d lo...
bt anyway...we will see each other soon...
WAN TO HEAR UR VOICE...
WAN TO SEE HOW U SMART...
WAN TO SEE HOW U SLEEP...
WAN TO SEE HOW U STUDY...
WAN TO SEE UR SMILE...
WAN TO KNOW ALL ABOUT YOU...
EVEN THOUGH I ALREADY PROMISE MYSELF
TO FORGET U..GIVE UP OF U...

After ericon...i go to find my dear dear(miyoko)
she cut hair le...cool man...wat a cool hair style..
bt she look like so fan...haiz...d reason is...she
scared her boyfren dun like her hair style...
(U WIN LIAO LO)wat a lame question....
the second reason is after cut tis kind of hair
hav to spray it everyday if no..like mushrooom...
bt our skul cnt spray...haiz... (U WIN AGAIN LO)...
oso gt boy boy le...no nid fan gt ppl say ugly o nt lo...
haiz... after tat miyoko brother cum in..he ask y does me at here...then i tell him :i miss u lo...
then her brother say: dun simply miss me , wan to ask me
can giv u miss o nt...
(WALAO..U TWO WIN LO)...haiz...after few...im fast fast
leave le...haha(IM THE LOSER...TT...)

today..finally i go ericon le...
adi 2 months din go...
my teacher tell my mom tat if i nvr go again...
he will decrease my lever... o...
fast fast go luu....dunwan drop level lo...
when im when to ericon...teacher say he is so happy
tat im back...!!!!.haha..laugh with him together...
d more suprise is he say me din cum for two months..my english already improve...
lol...shock dao.....!!!!mayb gua....haha...
gt improve better than no improve lo...
bt really dun like ericon...
so stress..the ericon student's english good dao....
haiz..no choice lo...my mom wan me learn then learn lo...GAMBATEH LO...

Friday, May 15, 2009


haiz...so cham...exam is coming soon..
bt cnt concentrate on my study....
my brain nw is full of u...
haiz..my exam absolutely will fail le...haiz...
weiiii....cool down ....cool down...!!!!!

after skul i feel so tired...bcoz at skul im was too high...haha..crazy with my fren....today is my most crazy day...my class d "two boys" crazy with me oso...haha...no nid study le lo....
wan exam adi le...oso wan to play play play...at ict, the malay boy so sampat...they ask d indian boy beside him to "steam"
if no wan to beat him ...haha...so kelian...bt we all laugh loudly....at science lab..d" two boy" sit beside me n kacao me all d time...so fan ah !!!!n the "one boy" always call me "noob haii" i really feel so angry n funny lo...dunno wan scoled him or laugh with him together...finally i oso laugh with him together...haha...im at science lab oso hav a nice time..although gt d "two boys"..bt coz of them juz hav a fun day...haha...really a nice day haha...bt wanna start study le... All my fren listen...exam is coming soon... "gambateh! " together ooo....

Tuesday, May 12, 2009


if someday u leave.....
i will feel sad and lonely..
i wanna u always by myside...
i dun care u hate me...
i juz wanna u by myside...
share of my happy and sad...
mayb forever..ya....!forever...forever...by myside...

many thgs cant share to the others...
juz keep it myself...
dun ask me...
i wanna keep it myself..
although is feel so lonely..
bt i juz wanna keep it by myself....

always care about you....
always get hurt.....
always missing you..
always get tired...
always wanna tried to forget you..
always cry in the night...
plz leave from my heart..
plz .....plz....plz.....

Thursday, May 7, 2009



im always cherish all of our thgs....

u wont knw forever....

i cry about u...

u wont knw .....

haha....stupid....stupid....

tire...tire...tire....

tis is all my business...

i dunno wat u think...

mayb let u go....

is set me free....

let u fly....

u wont cry to ur love forever....forever




i miss u so much...bt u wont knw...


i cn do everthing to u....


bt u always dont need my help...


im like a crazy girl....


everytime thinking about u...


bt tis all kind of thg juz my business...


u no interest to knw it...


im tired....tired..tired...


can u care about me...


if u care about me...


more tired i still cn carry it...


im juz need u...need ur care....